WE LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK, RONAN
It all starts with the melodic chords of the guitar.
You can feel your heart clenching in sorrow, like it has been soaked in vinegar...
If you are strong enough, you manage to stop those welled up tears from falling
But if you don't think you can do it, just make sure you have enough tissue papers to last 3 minutes.
I remember you bare feet
Down the hallway
I remember your little laugh
Race cars on the kitchen floor,
Plastic dinosaurs
I love you to the moon and back
I remember your blue eyes,
Lookin' into mine
Like we had our own secret club,
I remember you dancing
Before bed time
Then jumping on me, waking me up
I can still feel you hold my hand
Little man
And even the moment I knew
You fought it hard
Like an army guard
Remember I leaned in and whispered to you
Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years
I remember the drive home
When the blind hope
Turned to crying and screaming "Why?"
Flowers piled up in the worst way
No one knows what to say
About a beautiful boy who died
And it's about to be Halloween
You could be anything you wanted if you were still here
I remember the last day,
When I kissed your face,
Whispered in your ear
Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
Out of this curtained room in this hospital grey
We'll just disappear
Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years
What if I'm standing in your closet trying to talk to you?
And what if I kept the hand-me-downs you won't grow into?
And what if I really thought some miracle would see us through?
But what if the miracle was even getting one moment with you?
<Sigh...>
Come on baby with me
We're gonna fly away from here
You were my best four years
I remember you bare feet, down the hallway
I love you to the moon and back...
Taylor Swift,
It is music and lyrics like this that make you unique.
Thanks for such a beautiful song.
This song is entitled "Ronan" and it is made special because it was inspired by a real boy, Ronan Thompson. Especially touching is how the song is able to tell the story of the love between a mother and a son in just a few good lines.
If you have lost someone close due to cancer, you'd know the pain one goes through emotionally.
"Come on baby with me...we're gonna fly away from here..."
You know the feeling of how tired you are dealing with something and all you want to do is leave this place with that person, so that you both of you don't have to suffer anymore? You just want to protect that person from all the pain, and sometimes, you wish that you were the one suffering instead. That's a mother's love, lyrically entwined into the song.
I read snippets of Maya Thompson's (Ronan's mum) blog and I can see how tired she is with life - how scared she is of losing another person to cancer.
And I feel that Taylor had cleverly translated this emotion into the song...
"we're gonna fly away from here"
If previously she want to leave with her son, now she said she wants a vacation from life.
I especially love how Taylor made Ronan alive using descriptions of him with this race cars and dinosaurs. All these bring more character to this 4-year-old and we can all picture a cute little blue-eyed boy bare feet and playing with his toys. This way, we relate even more because I'm sure all of us have that sort of cuteness in our lives and imagine that cuteness suffering from cancer.
And the verse about Halloween, and how he can be anything - darn it! It's October...
When the blind hope
Turned to crying and screaming "Why?"
This verse too made an impression.
Yes, the blind hope.
We all have invested feelings in "hope" before and that moment of truth when you know that you've lost it all. I don't know how many of you have been through that moment before, when you realise that that person is really gone...when all you are holding on to (hope), is no longer in existence.
And the many times you ask "why" will only lead you down the road of frustrations and confusion...
You question 'fairness' in life but you will go home empty handed...
Cancer is an illness that I will never get.
It takes people's lives without warning, and we really don't know why.
It has nothing to do with what you do as a person...because the healthiest person can also die of cancer, the nicest person can also die of cancer.
If you eat too much sweets, you get diabetes, I get it, but this?
The only good thing in this behemoth cloud of sadness is that Ronan died in the arms of his mama...
I seek comfort in that, because to be able to die in the arms of a loved one is the best ending one can ever get. If you can, you are lucky...
I don't do much for Cancer patients really...
The only minor contribution I did was set up a few interviews for the National Cancer Society Malaysia and the Breast Cancer Welfareand also did up a microsite for one of their campaigns - and even that, it was a flop (because we don't have even manpower to do roadshows)..
I'm not walking the talk here but you don't need to be like me.
Here are some of the links that you can search and events that you can participate in to support the fight against cancer:
And if you want to read more about Ronan, here's one of his mum's blog posts: http://rockstarronan.com/2012/10/01/a-golden-night-all-for-you/
Ronan, the whole world loves you...
And to all those who have fought cancer like an army guard, this song's to you.
Love,
Tammy
p/s: I love you to the moon and back is the expression Ronan's mum use a lot...
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