OLD POEMS, SAME FEELINGS

So I guess I have felt this way before...

Going through some of my previous poems, and it is weird that sometimes,  I don't who I wrote some poems for. :)

It is kind of awesome, rereading those lines that previously meant something, and now could mean nothing, or mean something even more.

This is one I particularly like now, as I can't believe that the insecurities I felt back then, I could feel it again.

Incredible yet disturbing; disturbing because I've not yet grown out of the stage where I could let go and free my mind.

But I believe one day, I'll grow up and get the hang of life. To smile like I used to again - straight from the heart! 

I've lost it again

My sense of security

I try grabbing

Holding on to something

The tighter I grip

The faster I slip

It's hard

I put on a smiley face

Which is slowly fading 

Disregards the common race

They say what they say

But I thought I could do it my way

I'm afraid I can't take it longer though

I feel weak

I feel ugly

I feel small as can be

I feel judged by something beyond me

I feel sad

That I'm me...

TammyC