THE BATTLEFIELD


Not worth the time
But I keep thinking about it
I want my old life back
But is forced to charge forward
I am on a battlefield
And this year
Terribly hurt...
With almost no strength to fight again

As I lay battered with shattered hopes
I think of the wrongs that I've done
And I shall die feeling sorry inside
As I beg for forgiveness

I am sorry for
I have not loved enough
For I am selfish
And to be honest
I don't even love myself
And that's why, the love I give
Can't be as much
Because I am learning still
How to give and not expect to take

I am sorry for the things I said
That might have hurt some feelings
That I didn't think of how to
Better release words of anger
I am sorry for the words I didn't say
The things that I failed to express
The gratitude and love 
That could have changed a life
I wish I would have been able to 
Say things that should be said
And kept those that shouldn't be

If I die on the battlefield
I hope my fellow soldiers could fight on victorious
And I shall rot with joy
And watch from far away
But dying is the easy way out
Making it through is the challenge

But why do I keep pushing myself to live
When all I really want is to die
There is a reason...
It could be for myself
Or it could be for you
And we'll never know


Written by TammyC

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