I'LL GET OUT OF THIS ALIVE

Spotify is officially one of my favourite online radio. 8tracks too. They are the best place to discover new music, and we all know, music is life. There are so many new tracks that I am in love with right now but there is this particular one that I came across tonight and I just feel that at this point in life, this is one song that I can relate to.

This city's gonna break your heart

It's gonna leave you colder

Bright light's tearing us apart

It's gonna hurt all over

Honestly I'm better off lonely

Promises are just pretend

God help this faith I'm wearing

God help this skin

We can run, we can hide

We can show off our guns and put on a fight

If it's love, hold on tight, hold on tight

Maybe we'll make it out alive

I'm searching for the sound of your heartbeat

I'm looking for a sound of life

And I can hear it fading out

Lost my strength

When you lost your fight

There's gonna be thousand ways that we could break it 

There'll never be an easy way so I'll just say it 

Cause I know that it is not over 

No matter how hard we try 

Now I'm begging for the chance to make it right 

Cause you've got the best of me 

And you'll be the death of me 

Because I am always running away from my feelings and emotions. Because I will never publicly admit it and neither would I want to invest my time into loving someone because I feel that love and relationships are kind of a waste of time. Because nothing is permanent. And like the song said, Promises are just pretend. To love sometimes means to sacrifice and to be vulnerable, to hurt. It's just sad that sometimes, it is not really your choice.

My take on this song is that it captures all those emotions and thoughts but leaves you with a line of hope - that maybe you'll make it out alive. Maybe it is worth it to fight for love even though at the end, you are going to be battered and bruised. Maybe to be happy, you need to just hold on to blind faith.

Honestly, I hate having feelings for a person, especially if you think it is love. Love makes you do crazy things. Things that you normally don't do. My ego doesn't cope well with that. When you are in love, you lose yourself and I am the kind of person who takes pride in being different and being myself.

I find writing about this therapeutic because it helps me get through certain unwanted emotions. Somehow, I know I am strong enough to go through this. I am also blessed because I have so many other things to focus on and so many other people around me to distract me haha. So although the song asked us to hold on tight, I might just want to take Frozen's advice and Let it Go.

Kris Allen's "Thank You Camellia" is his best, although not his latest. I am loving it a lot!