HOW SUPERHEROES LEARN TO FLY

All her life she has seen
The meaner side of me
They took away the prophet's dream for a profit on the street
Now she's stronger than you know
A heart of steel starts to grow

All his life he's been told
He'll be nothing when he's old
All the kicks and all the blows
He won't ever let it show
'Cause he's stronger than you know
A heart of steel starts to grow

When you've been fighting for it all your life
You've been struggling to make things right
That's how a superhero learns to fly
Everyday, every hour
Turn the pain into power
When you've been fighting for it all your life
You've been working every day and night
That's how a superhero learns to fly
Every day, every hour
Turn the pain into power

All the hurt, all the lies
All the tears that they cry
When the moment is just right
You see fire in their eyes
'Cause he's stronger than you know
A heart of steel starts to grow

She's got lions in her heart
A fire in her soul
He's got a beast in his belly
That's so hard to control
'Cause they've taken too much hits
Taking blow by blow
Now light a match, stand back, watch them explode

I might smile a lot, but I too have my own set of problems and I do have my sad days. Sometimes I get really tired too you know. But I feel I have to make people happy because I feel happy making people's day too. But then people start expecting sometimes. And some days it gets hard.

This year, I really aced it with a positive attitude; I think I complained less and I am proud. I mostly love my job and I really felt I had great people around me. However, things took a slight turn this month... I mean, I know I can't expect to be on the high forever. So I try to welcome the lows with a smile on my face every time and try to accept it with an open heart. I guess although my brains try to rationalise the situation, my heart just couldn't take it and it bullied my eyes into shedding some water (just like the thunderstorm raging outside earlier).

The pounding sound of the thunder resonates with the storm I felt inside my heart. It was a mixture of sorrow and anger. But more sorrow as I realised that when people claim to be friends, the definition is just so vague. I always feel that true friends accept you for who you are, and they accept all your flaws. If you find a friend like this, that's a friend to keep. Today I realised that one of my biggest flaw caused me a friend. Of course it hurts. But then, I didn't do it on purpose. Maybe I won't get the forgiveness, and maybe I don't deserve it and things will not be the same again. I learn that maybe that friendship wasn't supposed to be right if a person can't forgive me for something I said unintentionally.

It is okay. I am learning. Hence this song. Because I want to be stronger, and I will learn to not let it show no matter how sad or down I am.

All the hurt, all the lies...

They say they are friends. I think it is a lie. Yes, the truth is that I cannot be friends with certain people. I always thought I can, but I will always be on the lower end. It will never be on the same ground or level. Because of the position you are in, you will always be on the losing end in the friendship or relation. It hurts a lot when I realise this truth and in the end, things will never be the same again. But it is okay. I think it is a message that God sent to me over and over again.

It is not all bad. I have best friends who are there for me; people I can still go to always. But I feel that I am naive that I believe if I treat people with my heart, then things will be good. I realised my mouth again, would destroy me. Because not everyone accepts it.

I want to thank those who cared for me so much. Who listened and did not laugh or judge me. Thank you all for being my true friends.

But no worries.

Because A heart of steel begins to grow.

I will survive and I can be cold.

At the end of the day, I don't want to be a superhero, I just want to be happy.