JOHN MAYER ON MY MOUTH

I was searching for some songs that could express my feelings at this moment. I knew this song "My Stupid Mouth" sung by Ryan Cabrera and after doing some researching, I found that this song apparently was by John Mayer. Basically I just like country music as a whole because I feel that I can relate to a lot of country music lyrics and also, I just feel that country songs are the most meaningful. 

Anyway, today I realize that John Mayer also writes a couple of songs that I can totally relate to. My Stupid Mouth is one of them.

My stupid mouth

Has got me in trouble 

I said too much again 

To a date over dinner yesterday 

She was offended 

She say, "Well anyway..." 

Just dying for subject change 

Oh, another social casualty 

Score one more for me

How could I forget? 

Mama said "think before speaking" 

No filter in my head 

Oh, what's a boy to do 

I guess he better find what soon 

I think that I'm a social screw up sometimes. I never have this filtering system in me. I talk too much. And honestly, I don't know what to do about the mouth and my brain not being able to control it. Just like what John Mayer sing in his song..."There is just no filter in my head" 

We bit our lips 

She looked out the window 

Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper 

I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker 

And I could see clearly 

And indelible line was drawn 

Between what was good, what just slipped out and what went wrong 

Oh the way she feels about me has changed 

Thanks for playing try again 

How could I forget? 

Mama said, "Think before speaking" 

No filter in my head 

Oh, What's a boy to do 

I guess he better find one 

I'm never speaking up again 

It only hurts me 

I'd rather be a mystery 

Than she desert me 

Oh I'm never speaking up again 

Starting now... Starting now 

One more thing 

Why is it my fault? 

So maybe I try too hard 

But it's all because of this desire 

I just wanna be liked 

I just wanna be funny 

Looks like the jokes on me 

So call me captain backfire 

You know, everytime I have a crush on someone, I just feel that I end up saying all the wrong things in front of him. Those guys that I can joke with and be myself with are not those I like but then with those I like, I can never be myself. I know it is normal but I hate that I always end up saying all the non-sensible and ridiculous stuff that makes me look like an idiot. Awkward. It hurts and every time I tell myself to never talk in front of him again or to avoid conversation so as to not look stupid. Sometimes I manage to be silent. But sometimes I end up talking again because like John Mayer say, in some way, I want his attention too. 

Why do we even have feelings? Makes us so weak but I guess it makes us human too. 

John Mayer also wrote another contradicting song called Say. 

"Better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again" 

In some ways, I also live by this statement. And that's why I say too much sometimes. I really think that everyone should voice out their opinions although I do admit that I'm really intimidated to speak out sometimes (in certain situations). But blogs are great ways to express oneself too. 

I think the person who is most annoyed with my talking is my sister. She is a non-talker, who never really talk much. I think she feels that action speaks louder than words. True in some ways. Sometimes, she finds talking unnecessary if it doesn't change anything. But imagine if no one says anything about anything, so? It also won't make any difference. And so she just find me super-duper annoying when I talk. Well, it's not my fault anyway. I mean, everyone has a purpose in life; I could be born to talk. 

So, in some ways, I feel that I need to talk and in some ways I think I can't be talking so much because I don't have a filtering system. My brain is so confused and I am so messed up. 

Oh well, let's just enjoy some music.